I am sooo impressed with myself right now. Not only did I make a camera cozy for Kenny, but I dyed the yarn too. I L-O-V-E it! I think i might make a laptop cozy :)

It is a sad, sad day. I found out that my beloved RENT is closing on Broadway June 1st. I am determined to see it as many times in NYC from now till then. And I will probably be going with Ralphy. June 1st will be a dark day :(

now THIS is the bread of a chrissy sandwich

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v210/invinciblesmile/johnandzach.jpg

of course, zb would be nicely shaven. he cant do facial hair, and neither can jm. but are they not the most precious things in the whole wide world!

i HAD to share this picture. i cracked up when i saw it....its my two favorite people. the jolly green giant (jm) and the keebler elf (pw).

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v210/invinciblesmile/?action=view&current=pete.jpg

lets jsut say i cant wait till next saturday!! yay john mayer! i still dont have anyone to go with but whatever, im not worried about it. ill drag alex if i have to lol. and im currently watching him on the Live Earth concert and i could die. i know im a freak, but whatever, the man and his guitar give me chills. i wish i could be there. between jm, keith urban and fall out boy i would be in music heaven. well actually i am even in my family room.

belief
vultures
gravity
waiting on the world to change

great set! and all the songs can relate to the cause. very nice.

i have come to the conclusion that i am cuddle deprived. and i only came to this conclusion after i sat here for a few moments this morning and then realized that i had a dream last night in which i was cuddling with chad micheal murray. this also tells me that i have been watching too much one tree hill, but its oh so good and ive gotten stacy into it. score! but yea back to my dream. it was weird, nice, but weird. this is what happens when you hang out with a bunch of cuddle whores all semester long and then you dont see any of them for a month. this must be fixed.

So I'm excited, one month till John Mayer. Granted I don't have any tickets yet, but I think I'm doing hte lawn thing with hopefully Alex and Jonathan. Good times. Maybe we can get more people to go. But here's a little something that bugs me, people complaining that he does similar set lists night after night. Why cant people just be happy that they are seeing him play live? And if it bothers them that much why dont they save their money and not go to shows night after night. I don't give a shit what he plays when he's in CT, as long as I get to see him play. Yes I would LOVE to hear 83, which he probabyl will do since it is about growing up in Bridgeport in 1983, but if I dont I wont mind. Some fans just get so obnoxious and start attacking people, celebs, for no reason. AH! I can't stand people sometimes.But I really can't wait for July 14th!

Ok that is all for now. I'm exhausted.

soooo....its been a really long while since i posted on here. dont really know why. i guess i havent had the urge to divulge everything, especially all of the stupid-i cant even think about it, it still makes me mad drama that was this last semester. but this evening i got a slight itch to write. maybe its because i bumped into a high school friend i havent seen in at least two years and was very happy about it. its funny how much you realize you missed someone when you just casually bump into them. im still a little in shock, but a good shock. i hope i see him more, now that he lives back in town.

oh oh and heres something else that makes me beaming with happiness...someone is home! i found out when i got home tonight. im so happy. like mikey said, now i can go back to shamelessly flirting, whoo hoo. haha i enjoy not really using names, well except for mikeys. its fun and ever so cryptic, but not really.

i believe the parentals will be going up to canada soon that means p-a-r-t-y time! i cant wait, its been a while since we've had a party without the parentals around. scary things may just happen. get the camera ready!

but that is all for now. im tired and once again im up at 7 tomorrow to watch miss morgan. good thing shes the best baby ever! not to mention one of the cutest :)

The Basics
Guy or Girl or Other: girl
Age: 21
Place of Residence:dubfield
Zodiac Sign: virgo

Write the first thing that comes to mind
love: will keep us together
metal: head
cube: awesome movie
religion: im losing it?
devastation: virginia tech
giraffes: catskill game farm
the moon: the sun and the stars

Sex and Love
Do you want children? oh most definetly
Have you ever cheated on someone? nope
Have you ever broken up with someone? nope
Have you ever been cheated on? nope
Have you ever done anything sexual for money, food, drugs, or something else? nope
When your looking for someone to date do you pay attention to their zodiac sign? cant say i do
Do you send mixed signals? maybe
Do you find vampires sexy? if u mean angel then yes!

Favorites
Whats your favorite season? spring, summer and faall
Whats your favorite book? way too many
Whats your favorite candy? peanut butter cups, reeses pieces
Whats your favorite fast food chain? dont have one
Whats your favorite color? purple, blue and silver
Whats your favorite word? i dont really have one
Whats your favorite swear word? fuck, its the most versitile
Whats your favorite time period? dont really have one
Whats your favorite holiday? halloween and st.pattys day
Whats your favorite website?john mayer

The Physical
Can you roll your tongue? yup
Have you ever been stung by a bee? nope!
What was the stupidest life threatening thing you've ever done? there are none
Have you ever laughed so hard something came out of your nose? nope
When was the last time you got 8 full hours of sleep? last night
When was the last time you ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner (not all at once)? umm a really long long time
Can you turn your eyelids inside out? gross, no
What do you think is your best physical feature? eyes, lips, legs?
Can you balance a spoon on your nose? never tried
Do you use chapstick? yup
How many times a day do you brush your teeth? once
Can you do a hand stand? nope
Do you blush? omg yes, its sad

Fucked Questions
If you could only save the life of one of your parents, who would it be? well dad's since his is hte one that was lost
Do you know anyone who died in 9/11? thankfully know, but i know people who were in the area
If you knew you were going to die without being able to say goodbye to the one person you wanted to, what message would you want them to get? omg how morbid, no clue

Violence and Breaking the Law
Have you ever been in an all out fist fight? nope
Have you ever sent anyone to the ER? nope
Have you ever drawn blood from someone? nope
Do you own any weapons (kitchen knives dont count)? nope, i hate that shit
Have you ever shoplifted? nope
Have you ever gotten caught shoplifting? i would have to do it to even try to get caught

Others
Do you know anyone who has been in the army? aunt tracy, ryan
Who knows you best? alex
Who do you have more respect for: firefighters or police officers? i have respect for both, but i know more firefighters
What was the name of your first pet? goldie
Do you know anyone who is a size 0 or smaller? dont think so
Have you ever seen a therapist or psychiatrist? a grief counselor
Have you ever been to a psychic? i have gotten my tarot read

Beliefs and Brains
Can you point out the West Bank on a map? uhh maybe
Are you good at math? decent
Is there anything you think is underrated? umm...probably
Do you know what the current foreign policy is for the US? not really
Does Canada suck? omg no! i love canada

Everything Else
Do you name inanimate objects? baby my car, jetta my ipod
Have you ever visited another country? only canada
Whats your standard greeting when you answer the phone? hello, hi, yo, what...it all depends
Do you own a pair of handcuffs? nope
Do you use the word pussy? If so, why? nope
Do you put ketchup on your eggs? that i do
Do you put mayo on your burgers? nope
Speaking of food, what was the last thing you ate? popcorn



1. Do you smoke mary-jane? nope
2. Have you kissed somebody in the last 2 weeks? nope
3. Who's the last person that came to your house? my brother in law
4. Who lives in a pineapple under the sea? sponge bob square pants
5. What is the last thing that you drank? diet coke
6. What time did you get up today? 9:30am
7. Elvis or James Dean? james dean
8. Who is one person you can't stand from grade school? amanda
9. What grade did you get in Algebra? dont remember
10. Who did you kiss last? tee hee hee
11. Is there anyone you would like to fight? sometimes yea
12. Do you like someone right now? sorta, kinda, why not
13. What are you doing right now? talking to mikey, watching growing pains
14. What were you doing before this survey? same as above
15. Who did you dance with last? probably lil alex
16. Who is your best friend(s)? stacy, alex, mikey, ralphy
17. Song playing? girlfriend-avril...its stuck in my head
18. If you could have one wish: i'd make it
19. What color are your underwear? blue, pink, lime green
20. Do you know what tofu is? yea
21. Have you ever eaten it? nope
22. Do you know what a colonoscopy is? yea
23. Have you ever had one? uhh no
24. Do you want to go back to high school? sometimes
25. Who is your arch-enemy? im an arch-nemisis
26. What's the most attractive thing on the opposite sex? smile, eyes, hair
27. Do you or have you ever read Cosmo? ooh yea
28. Have you ever watched the Britney Spears movie, "Crossroads"? own it!
29. Do you listen to Lindsay Lohan? sometimes
30. What do you think of Paris Hilton? hate her
31. What do you think of Justin Timberlake? can i do him?
32. Britney or Christina? britney, even if she is a psycho
33. Do you want platinum or gold for your wedding band? platinum
34. Have you ever paid to have your eyebrows waxed? yup
35. What did you do yesterday? did stuff for my grandmother and baked banana bread
36. Are you bored right now? sorta
37. Have you ever flashed someone? nope
38. How many children do you want to have? 2 or 4...no middle, no odd numbers
39. Who did you ride in a car with last? guy
40. Republican or Democrat? unaffiliated
41. What's the oldest that a man can be and still be sexy? it all depends on the person
42. Do you think that the tobacco companies should pay for people's medical bills? i dont know
43. What scares you the most? losing my mom and brother and my nieces
44. What makes you happy? my friends, my nieces, musicals, music, books
45. If you could have one person in your bed tonight, who would it be? haha...hahaha...hahahhaha...lets just say "and all that jazz"

 im addicted to this song, and its by a girl i dispise. fuck you avril!!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell Yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right
She’s like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear
I don’t want to hear you say her name ever again
(And again and again and again!)
She’s like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
She’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!

so week so far has been sucky as hell. but i must say, h turned that around a bit when he accidently poured water down my shirt. i couldnt get mad, bc he honestly did it by accident. and then i got a funny picture on my phone that he took of himself and put as a wallpaper, which now scares me everytime i open my phone. ooh and of course not to meantion mikey and alex helping with me not killing people :) those 3 people are probably the only people who have made me honestly smile or laugh this week.

so that paragraph was put together in a messy manner and i dont feel like trying to make a true coherant statement. so deal. and now im gunna do a little meme bc i feel like it.

Soundtrack to my life:

Opening Credits: Enterlude- The Killers

Waking Up: Why Do I Keep Counting- The Killers

First Day of School: 6th Avenue Heartache- Wallflowers

Falling In Love: Out from Under- Incubus

Fight Song: All My Life- KC & JoJo

Breaking Up: What You Own- RENT

Prom: We Might As Well Be Strangers- Keane

Life's Okay: Glycerine- Bush

Mental Breakdown: Straight Jacket Feeling- AAR

Driving: Lenny/Man On The Side- John Mayer

Flashback: I Am A Building- Wallflowers

Getting Back Together: How Sweet It Is- Michael Buble

Birth of a Child: So Says I- The Shins

Final Battle: Tears and Rain- James Blunt

Death Scene: I Met A Girl- Wheat

Funeral Song: LA Song- John Mayer

Ending Credits: My List- The Killers (i obviously have too much of them on my ipod)
........

And heres just a yearly thing i do...

they say that time heals the heart, well i think that time makes the heart break more.

fuck you scrubs! thats right i just said fuck you to one of my favorite shows. why must it be able to convey such strong emotions during the crappiest part of the year?? it gave me that achy, breaking heart feeling...and i did not mean for that to sound like billy ray cyrus was about to sing lol. but really, it hurts. sigh.

but other than that today was a good day, and i mean good. big smile! bc honestly, its the simple things in life that make me happy, whether or not you believe me is your own problem.

i have so much to do tomorrow and saturday. but i would really enjoy fitting in 300 tomorrow night. looks like i might have to make a phone call, and nooo not to hbos. although my day did feel a little less sarcastic without him around today.

ok thats enough. happy easter and passover to everyone!!!

thought i would just meantion that its christopher meloni's 46th bday...and he is one hot man for 46.

also there is a shot called the fucked up greek...that is just too great. but its sad when my mom started cracking up when she saw it. some how she has even caught the hbos fever, wehre anything that is greek leads to hbos. i think we all need serious intervention.

mikey got me good with an april fools joke last night. he only got me bc it was a very feasable story.

ok. its time for bed.

hmm anyone wanna go out for a drink thursday night? no fieldwork friday thanks to good friday so im thinking why not actually go out for once. maybe a martini at tisane...come on, you know you want to.

i'm an auntie once again to a baby girl. she was born yesterday morning at 9:25 and weighed 8lbs 13oz and is 20 inches long. after hours of not being named jen and jim finally decided on morgan ashley. im not a fan of her name, but then again shes not my child. and if she was her name would have been isabella rose or peyton starr/rose.

spring is in the air. it is GORGEOUS out!! love it!

i dont know if this actually ever appeared on the show, oz that is, but its hilarious!!



and here, laugh some more...



and this one is just cute oz man love...


and now i REALLY need to get off youtube and go to bed. i need to own the seasons of svu and oz. and i may have an unhealthy obsession with chris meloni.

so last night, well this morning, i had an intersting dream. i was at my grandparents house because i had to bring my grandmother to the bank. ok so it seems all fine and normal, and then my grandfather walks in, the one that died 2 weeks ago. my cousin charlie was there and so were the neighbors who i hate. poppop looked a little pale and i remember saying "i still cant believe the hospital messed up like that". see poppop didnt die, he was actually in a coma. but social secrurity had already been notified that there was a death certificate before he came to. i dont know how much my dream telling is making sense but im not really in the writting mentallity right now so my writing fucking blows. anywhoo my dream then ended bc my mom woke me up bc i did in fact have to bring my grandmother to the bank.  i didnt dare speak of a word about my dream to my grandmother. she would take it as some sign and thats the last thing she needs. she keeps his bedroom (yes they didnt share a room dont ask, i dont know) light on all night in hopes that he will come back. i wish i could say that the though of him coming back is insane but i can admit that sometimes i feel the same way about dad, its like you just sit and hope that one day when the door opens its him. but thats enough of me being crazy, ive already been labeled racist this week i dont need insane as well.

yea i dont feel like getting into it, but yes i, along with the rest of the eboard and commuter lounge, was called a racist yesterday. its a long ridiculous story. and teh fact that alex and i took most of the blunt force name calling, should make you laugh. the 2 most none racist people in the lounge, possibly even the world, had to hear it. sigh. but thats enough about that. i dont want to get myself all frustrated again.

thats all for now, im gunna get back to watching law and order. yum jesse l martin.

so...one dude on american idol sang john mayer and KILLED it. i mean he took it out in the back and slaughtered it to death. i almost cried, actually i think died. and THEN to make things worse andother guy sang keith urban and butchered it to hell as well. 2 really good songs by my 2 favorite artists were killed, slaughtered, murdered. they might as well just take a muse, shins, killers, or death cab song and finish me off.

oh snap...hugh laurie is apparently an accomplished writer. i think i need to go buy me some hugh laurie books. if im lucky he'll be like steve martin and be an amazing writer.

let me just reiterate how much i love harry connick jr. I LOVE HARRY CONNICK JR. ok. now that thats done.

every ounce of energy has been drained from me today due to so many things. how im still awake i dont know.

im still coughing up a lung.

i hate my grandmothers neighbors.

i think i have come to realize that im actually not dealing with my grandfathers death and that what everyone is taking as maturity may actually be denial of some sort. or maybe it is maturity, im just not used to reacting to tragedy in such a way.

i just want a hug. yup thats what i want a need, a hug. i have been hugged many a times in the past week, but theres just one hug that im missing. its the kind of hug i would get from my ralphy or even justin. i know someone who could possibly fill their shoes, but im not one to ask for a hug. maybe i should become this person.

oh also, i love peter wentz of fall out boy, its official.

eyes shutting.

good night.

theres nothing like having no voice. i cant wiat to go to school tomorrow and be taunted. but really, i honestly cant wait to go to school tomorrow hehe. oh and i hope my reenbersement check is finally in bc i need to buy me some HCJ concert tickets! and then i will have to find someone to go with me...hmm...

last night was a lot of fun. i probably shouldnt have gone since well i have a cold which is why i have no voice, but whatever, its worth not being able to speak without being in pain. i love lauren she is the best! and its always fun to hang out with mr.jonathan. and of course i love hanging out with my wife, who although she doesnt like talking about her personal life likes to bring up mine, which makes me laugh and i know its only bc shes happy for me but still, its a funny concept if you know her. plus it was with people who i would talk to about stuff anyways. oh and miss stacy (school stacy) is hilarious. but lia, well she knows how to bring down a convo but oh well. all in all it was fun going out to the bar whith 3 people i spend too much time with and 2 who i dont see very often (even if one of them goes to school 5 mintues away).

just watched the science of sleep, wow what a mind fuck. a good mind fuck, but a mind fuck none-the-less. i cant quite describe it. but rent it and watch it.

oh well tea time and maybe some laundry too.